Without a doubt, it is a season of abundant blessings for this girl and the ministry she’s been entrusted with.
Driving back from Research Triangle Park this evening–after a full day at GlaxoSmithKline where I proudly accepted the 2012 IMPACT Award (AND a $40,000 check!!) on behalf of Restoration Place–all I could think to say to the Lord was “You. Are. So. Good.”
I was taken back in my mind to December 2004, the “eve” of my last semester in graduate school. I had just been told by a very dear friend that she and her husband had decided to financially cover the remaining balance necessary for my tuition and living needs. I remember walking around my home in a bit of shock, and saying to the Lord the words of King David’s prayer of thanksgiving found in 2 Samuel 7: Who am I, O Sovereign Lord, that You have brought me this far?! In essence I was asking Him why He would do this for me. And then as clearly as if He was standing next to me, I remember “hearing” in my spirit, “Because I am good and I love you.”(Translated: it’s really not about you, Cindy.)
It was such a life-changing lesson for this intensely-driven, over-achieving, control freak who often believed that God’s blessing was only tied to my performance. However, understanding that His blessing was not because I was good, but because He is was like strapping wings on my back and releasing me to freely fly. And while I’ve allowed Him to bring growth and transformation into my life since that December night eight years ago, it is not difficult for me to frequently revert back to that intensely-driven, over-achieving, control freak.
So tonight, as I have pondered the wonderful blessing of this day, I have not asked the question who am I? (By this point in the game, I clearly know the answer to that question!) Instead, I’ve declared to my God: You know what your servant is really like, Sovereign Lord, [yet] You have done all these great things. Because…You. Are. So. Good!
My favorite translation of this passage of Scripture (2 Samuel 7:17-21) is from The Message Bible. It reads: “What can I possibly say in the face of all this? You know me, Master God, just as I am. You’ve done all this not because of who I am but because of who You are—out of Your very heart!—but You’ve let me in on it.”
What a gift. My cup runneth over.